Well, where should I start? I haven't posted in my journal for a while... I've been sick for the past week. My comp. got a virus so I haven't been able to get on here in a while. I lost a lot of my stuff on my comp. because the stupid idiots at ABI didn't back up all the stuff I told them to. I can't find my recite for it either so I can't rub it in there faces. I just want to go down there and punch them all and have them fired!... but I can't... I don't even have that much energy any more... So I just curled into a little ball up stairs in my room and cried... I can't do any thing. I've lost one story that I was writing, a bunch of poems that I've written, loads of pictures that can't be replaced, a lot of my dreams (I keep a dream journal), school work, and a bunch more stuff. I've lost a lot. I don't even know all the stuff that's lost. I think that's what makes me so angry/sad. I don't know what I've lost... I feel like a part of my life as just disappeared and I don't even know what part it was! I just know I lost part of it... It makes me sad and very worried. To top it all off I'm sick too, so I don't feel good when I get this news. So I'm storming around the house yelling, which just makes my sour throat hurt more. I'm crying which makes my head pound, and then I feel like throwing up too. Finally I fell asleep and told my BF about it the next day. I cried and he held me like he always does when I cry. Now I can't even talk or think about my comp. with out crying... or at least getting really sad... *Sigh* On another note though, I'm graduating on the 28th. I'm slightly exited. I'm mostly curious as to how much of my family will show up. My family's not very close, but they've all been calling and asking about the graduation, so I'm a little curious. I haven't even met most of them. I just hope I'm not sick on my graduation. I'm waiting for my test results from the SAT. I think I did well but I don't know... I'm not sure. I have a good feeling about it but usually when I have a good feeling it turns out bad. Only rarely is it ever good. I went to my prom (Which I wasn't sick then) Then I went to my BF's prom. It just shows how much my school sucks. We have a poor school. My BF's prom was in a nice hotel. It was beautiful! They had two fire pits and half of the prom was out side, and the dance floor was in side. They had good music for the most part. We even got to request a few. My prom on the other hand was in a run down old building. It had holes in the wall that they tried to cover up with pictures and decoration which just made it look worse to me. The strobe-lights were pointing directly into your eyes most of the time... and the music sucked. It wasn't dancing music at all and we couldn't request songs. The punch ran out way too fast! But they did have a nice selection of food. But I did have a good time at my prom. I think I had more fun at my prom than I did at my BF's. I think it was just because my friends were there at my prom. I was kind of alone at my BF's. That and I was sick. I wasn't feeling all to good. Luckily though one of my BF's friends had some aspirin... at least I think it was aspirin... I hope it was. Any ways I did start to feel a little better after taking that. After prom was mother’s day. I still felt sick but my mom wanted me to come with her and dad to dinner. So I did. They just didn't tell me that they wanted to stop by grandmas before we went to dinner. Mom also wouldn't let me eat because she wanted me to be hungry for dinner. *Sigh* So we stayed at grandma's for about and hour. I just nodded my head and tried not to zone out too much. (Not feeding a sick person is bad right?) By the time we did get to eat I was starving! Dinner was good. It was a really fancy place that my dad took us. ^_^ I ate and then we found out that mom got a dessert for free since it was mother's day. She ordered a moose cake. It was delicious! It was one of the best things that I had ever tasted! After dinner my mom wanted to walk around a little bit to "work off the dinner". I started coughing my head off while we were walking. So we decided to stop and drive home. I coughed the whole way. I got back and was so tired! I also had school the next day! And I had to go... I only got like 8 days left of school so mom is making me go for the last few days. My muscles all ache, my nose is running of the wall, my head hurts, and I'm still coughing. It seems like I'm not going to get better any time soon. I can't even seem to find a time to rest... My mom doesn't believe I'm sick even though I'm hacking up a lung! I just need to rest... I think I might be able to get better if I could just rest a little... but I can't this is the last home stretch of school. It's very chaotic. *Sigh* I'm just so very sick and tired... And one of the worst part of it is that finals are coming up soon. Well, I'm going to go and try to get some rest before any one notices I'm not doing something.